Learn to understand

My mind speaks clear, a own idea
but my heart can’t understand
can not see the plan of this idea

Makes me cry

benumb me with a dangerous poison
makes me unable to move
keeps me trapped in a strange prison

Its a drug inside me

But I will stay here as long as my heart beats
I will suppress the pain, my internal beast

Why is my clear  mind  become indistinct?
covered by a smoke screen is my instinct

I don’t want to make mistakes

Without this poison I feel alone
with, I don’t know my own

Help me to live